Out from the darkness…
…the dark monster tries to get into action…
…after lurking for a while…
The dark monster is always out there. Lurking, keeping an eye out, and when my resistance is low, when the spoons have been spent, when I am all out of energy… It jumps out and tried to pound on me. Pin me down and feed me with all the darkest thoughts, so that I will stay defenseless and down. And, I feared that this would happen… I knew that my spoons would be low, my energy would be bad, I would be tired a lot and not get the best sleep. So now, I am struggling with feeling lonely and I feel like I am a nuisance that people want to stay far away from… They will be polite, but just because they are hoping that it will keep me at bay… Or well, that’s what my brain is trying to convince me of…
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